What is it about gangs and violence that attracts boys. I will admit I was in a little tiny close group of friends. When we were out we were always looking for trouble, blood was spilled, windows shattered, egos bruised...some egos were beaten to a pulp. I was probably the weakest link, I like a fair fight, I don't have the heart to smash some one in the head with a portable grill when they are on the ground in pain (also I have a glass-jaw that shatters with the slightest touch (as if I was Mr. Glass in Unbreakable)). I have been slightly cut by a knife, that was scary. I have been in the back of the head with a brick, that was very painful and also scary. No pain can match a golf club whipping over and over against your back, legs, arms...while you are blinded by pepper spray. Anyway, shit happens. As my girl Aaliyah used to say "you can dust yourself off and try again." I am older now, I have no insurance, no dental, no medical, no vision, plus now I am pudgy, slow, weak and soft. The 18-year-old version of me, could rape and pillage my apartment in seconds and all I could do is rock the fetal position as hard as I can.
The old days are over, I wish I fought better, but I wish I had done a lot of things better, much more important that I neglected. Now I am a lover, and I am much better as a lover than a fighter. I have a dog and she is not a pitbull. She's a lover too and hates social tension...goddamn I love her. click here for a great example of boy gang violence
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